Sarah's Life

the gym

2010-03-28T22:25:00.000-07:00

Well I finally started going to the gym. Tomorrow will be day 3. We havent been to much yet, just Aqua Fit! But its great, and a great work out. My goal is to lose as much weight as I can in 2 months! Because we are going to Nickelback in June. I want to wear my nice dress and actually look good in it! I have a pair of Capri's that I havent been able to wear since I moved to Kamloops. I can almost fit them, but not yet. They are a size 16. Then hopefully by the end of summer i can wear my sun dress, that is a size 13!! I bought it when I lived in Airdrie! So that proves how much weight I have gained in 3 years. I will keep updating...My starting weight is 210 lbs! I am recording this for myself...not for people to judge me. I will post it once a week...:)

Oh how i miss you

2010-03-24T16:35:00.000-07:00

Meesh!!

2010-03-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

A year ago today...well I guess yesterday now I met Heather at work! Who knew how close we would be! She is such an amazing friend. We had a great day, with some fun pictures!! love ya Hezzy!!

The Little Things!

2010-03-09T19:28:00.000-08:00

Some things that get me through the day. Even though they are little things!

1. Waking up to my kitties!

2. Charlie always wanting to sit and cuddle with me, and only me! He's my little kitty

3. Hearing my hunny's voice every day on the phone!

4. Ice Tea Lemonaide from Starbucks!!

5. Talking to my buddy Heather every day. She always calls to see how my day is going!

6. Blogging, and reading other blogs!!

7. Being confident inm yself, and not letting my depression get the worst of me!

8. Chatting on MSN

9. Facebook!! Soo addicted!!

10. Talking to my mom everyday!! Havent seen her since July. I miss her tons:(

I know they are little things, but they are my little things in my every day life. My kitties are the best, and they love me so much! Buddy is my 15 lbs grey tabby! And Charlie is my little tabby! He has been a great little guy. They have definitly helped me get through every day.

My hunny makes so many things better. Just hearing his voice, makes me know things will be ok. I can't wait to actually be with him forever. He lives in Campbell River, so I don't get to see him. But I talk to him every day!

People know me at starbucks! Im sure they know what I order too. Depending on the day, I get a Vanilla Latte or a White Chocolate Mocha...Or a Venti Ice Tea Black Lemonaide! mmm soo good!!

I have known Heather almost a year now. We met at work, and have been friends ever since! She has been there for me this whole time after losing my job and everything! She is a great friend! Meesh!!!

I am addicted to reading blogs! As most of you. Kelly's Korner is one of my faves!! She is awesome and so inspiring!

Anyways Just thought I would do a quick post! Hope everyone is well:) Leave some comments if you read my blog!! Be nice to see who is reading, and see where you are all from:)

interviews

2010-03-08T13:14:00.000-08:00

I am on the verge of getting kicked out of my house! My roomate is an asshole and hasnt paid me rent in almost 2 months! I am going to have to kick him out if he doesnt pay! It would be so nice to have my house back!! Well I got 2 phone calls today for interviews! One is for home support! I would love to do that. But do I tel them what happened? Or just leave it all out? I also have an interview at subway. I could work at subway in the morning, and Home Support in the evening! Things are starting to look up! YAY me

still hanging in there..

2010-03-01T22:26:00.000-08:00

Well I am still here, almost running out of patients. People who know me, know I have a lot of patients. Everything was working so well for me. I had my career, my friends, my apartment. I had everything going for me, and all because of a couple people, that had nothing better to do, other then try and get someone fired, ruined it for me. I hope they are happy that they got their way. Hope their happy that they got me fired, and ruined everything for me. But you know what...Life goes on. One day I will be ok, happy. And I hope I will have someone to come home to every night. Right now I feel so lost and depressed. All I can ask for are good friends to be here for me! I believe everything happens for a reason, maybe it will all come together. I hope so anyways.

a sign everything's going to be OK!!

2010-02-09T12:50:00.000-08:00

Well I have been through a lot this past month. The other day I lost it...I wanted to give up, and walk away from everything. I have been screwed over by work, I didn't get EI, because of work. I just wanted to quit. So I sat down one day, and asked for a sign that everything will be ok. The next day...I met him! We are perfect for each other, he is something I have been waiting for all my life. We want the same things in life, same morals, everything. Since meeting him...I have had a huge boost, and motivated to move on. His encoureging words make me get through my day! I can't wait to see what the future holds! I truely do believe tho that he was a sign, and couldn't have come in a better time!! He's perfect for me. I now know...everything will be OK!!!

Your in my thoughts

2010-02-05T02:05:00.000-08:00

I have a friend in Vancouver that was beaten in a back alley by her so called boyfriend. They don't know where he is. But she is in the hospital with injury's to her face. Her dad says her face is caved in, and will need work to fix it. Lets hope they find this bastard that did it to her! http://www.ctvbc.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20100202/bc_alley_attack_100202/20100202/?hub=BritishColumbiaHome

I need to Vent!

2010-01-31T00:10:00.000-08:00

Well I have lost my job. They wrongfully accused me of abuse and neglect to the residents. I don't know where to start or end, But I am so sick of the BS. People make me so mad. Residents have the right to refuse care. I had a resident refuse care all day on me, there was nothing I could do, or say for her to agree with me. The last time I attempted care on her she got really aggitated. Just before lunch my boss came up and seen the state she was in, and helped me get her ready...2 days later I was fired. I wasnt able to explain myself, she just laughed in my face, told me I was a bad care aide and I was dangerous. While the whole time she was helping me, she was rough with the resident, yelling at her and everything. We had her up in the life, and it was pushing on her head, and the resident told her to stop, because she was hurting her. My manager told her to quit complaining and listen to her...AND I GET FIRED FOR ABUSE! BULLSHIT!! I wouldn't do anything to hurt anybody, even my worst enemy, it's just not me. If I am such a bad care aide, then why the hell to my old residents...WHO HAVE DEMENITA!! Light up when they even hear my name?? Tell me that. There is so much abuse going on right now, so many bad care aides, that shouldnt have gotten their certificate that are still there. So now I need to get my name cleared...But I don't know where to start. I want to file a complaint against my manager...But I don't know how...UGH I am so stuck, and still in shock! I just don't get this world these days:(

My Loves

2009-11-30T22:01:00.000-08:00

I have so many special people in my life! I am happy!

Happy for once!

2009-10-10T01:03:00.000-07:00

Well I am finally happy in life...And I'm single!! Ahh I love it. I have met an awesome friend...she is like my long lost twin!! We work the same shift, and have the same days off together. So we are pretty much always together! I haven't really been single in a long time, and now i know what I was missing. I have met a few guys here and there. But im not interested at all. I am totally enjoying myself, and my freetime! I don't really talk to Travis very much anymore. He's a loser haha!! Shh I didn't say that. Just not my type of guy. Such a momma's boy. Not good to hate your mother in Law! So im glad it didn't work out! I can do much better!

I am moving to a newer bigger place at the end of this month, and im gonna have a little party with my "friends" YAY i can't wait!!

Work sucks, and I don't get paid enough for what I do. Don't get my wrong, I absolutly love my job...but not the place I work at. There is so much BS. It sucks! Anyways I'm gonna post some pictures...If anyone still reads my blog, let me know!?

Moving??

2009-09-02T11:24:00.000-07:00

Today my heart is really set on going home where I belong! I don't have anyone in Kamloops anymore. Travis doesnt talk to me, I feel free! and I can do what ever I want. And right now my heart is really telling me to move home to Mission! I have all my friends and family there. It's home to me! And always will be. I have a few things to look into, then I will make my decision. I need someone to teach me how to drive for one thing. I'm sure I will find someone, and I need a full time job so I can support myself! Ahh I can't wait. Right now I feel this is the best thing I can do! Wish me luck!!

it's been a while.

2009-07-15T17:22:00.000-07:00

Well It's been a while since I wrote here. Cause everyone that reads my blog I talk to. Summer has been going pretty good. I went camping in Quesne for 10 days with my family, and got to see my mom. I got a ton of pics that I will put up. The weather was great, and I got burned like crazy, but a nice tan afterwards. My cousins got me drunk the first night...I don't drink much so it was fun, and I knew when to stop.

The weather in Kamloops has been scorching! 30 degrees all the time. Even when it rains it's hot. But it's worth it. I love it here! Tomorrow I get to go to Salmon Arm with my family! I can't wait. It's gonna be nice weather for it! Then back to work on Friday for 4 days, then 6 days next week.

I FINALLY got my Learners today! Now i can start driving!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY by next summer I will have my own car and drive anywhere I want! WOO HOO I can't wait!

my new bud!

2009-06-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

Well things are going ok, living on my own and stuff. I got a new buddy! I love him to pieces! His name suits him! He is a 1.5 yr old cat, that LOVES to talk, and snuggle when im sitting down. Everywhere I go, he's always right behind me. I'm so happy I made up my mind and got myself a cat.

life

2009-05-25T12:15:00.000-07:00

Well I haven't blogged in a while, Just kind of lost interest I guess. I doubt many people read it anyway. Things have been pretty good around here. I am settled into my new place! It sucks waking up with no one beside you, I think thats the hardest part. Coming home to an empty house! But we are doing OKAY! I see Travis a lot, we spend our days off together pretty much. My neighbor is amazing! She bakes and cooks for me! The other night she made mini pies, and meat pies! I got some of thoes. I have a lot in my freezer too, but their not mine! She borrowed my freezer because she didn't have anymore room in hers lol.

I have somehow been losing a lot of weight. I am not going by what I actually weigh, because that vary's throughout the day, so I don't know what to go by...I know right after you get up in the morning, and after you pee...I have been fitting into all my old clothes. I feel a lot better too.

Work has been going okay. One resident scares the shit out of me! And he knows it, he follows me around with a blank stare, ready to snap. My last 4 shifts he has attacked someone! One day it will be one of the RCA's, and we WILL get hurt! He is a huge man. He is scary when he's mad...but such a nice guy tho. I feel bad, because he was never like this in his normal life. I would never want dementia, it turns you into something u never were, it's pretty sad.

I got to see Jason and Ashley and the kids a couple weeks ago! They are sure getting big! I talked to my mom a few times after what happened. I still can't believe she did that, and ya...Im still pissed! I just don't understand how someone could do that, Especiall a mother! Oh well

anyways im gonna go get ready and go for a walk, It's about 25 outside right now!!

Trust?

2009-04-30T10:12:00.000-07:00

Well it took a long time to build my moms trust back, after what she has done. So many little things. I trusted her, and I trusted Ross. I trusted they have changed, and would not screw me over. But i was wrong:( Yesterday my mom told me that she has had my name in her hydro since October. She used all my information to set up an account. I can't trust her, I don't even want to talk to her. I am done with getting hurt! So there is an outstanding balance on the account, that i have to pay if she doesn't, and if she doesn't pay it, it will screw my credit up. I just wish I had a normal mom that would take care of me! Especially during a hard time like now. But sometimes it seems i wish for to much:(

this is it

2009-04-13T12:09:00.000-07:00

Well this is it. I am moving out at the end of the month, and me and Travis are no more! I don't know what to do or think right now though. I am heartbroken and lost. But I AM STRONG and can get through this again, and again and again. Well it seems like it anyway. I found a 1 bedroom apartment on the north shore, and it's close to everything. Cross the street and you have extra food, shoppers, the gym, McDonald's and a bunch more stuff. Once I move out things will get better! I hope anyways. I have been working a lot, and that seems to keep my mind off things. But lately its been a gong show. They fired one of my co workers and keep forgetting to schedule someone to work for her. So yesterday no one came in, and i ended up doing pretty much all 13 residents myself. I am tired but today is my Friday!!

The end

2009-04-02T11:10:00.000-07:00

Well I guess i should let the world know...Travis and I broke up...well are breaking up. Either him or I will move out at the end of April. This is one of the hardest things ever. The worse pain ever is a broken heart! I have nothing else to write. Maybe a miracle will happen and things will work out. I doubt it though. One day I will meet my prince charming, who loves me for me! I will update more in a bit!

Some stuff...clean house!

2009-03-15T22:21:00.000-07:00

Well Travis' mom was here for 5 days...FUN! She cleaned our house from top to bottom, did all our laundry, and made us a huge turkey dinner...We have enough turkey to have a whole big dinner again. It's so nice tho, our house is spotless!! I love it, and have been keeping up with it. Travis and I have had a rough patch in our relationship. Had a scary day the other day...Everything turned out ok though. For whoever reads my blog, i posted a couple links on the right side of babies that need our prayers...or thoughts. Little Harper was born with pneumonia. She was in the hospital for 20 days. She's so cute! Then Braydon was born with fluid on his lungs I think...He is home and doing better also. And baby Jonah was born with a rare skin condition. So if u want, take a look and pass them on. Hope everyone is doing ok!

Thank you!

2009-03-03T23:54:00.000-08:00

Today I was having a bad day, cleaning up the house and everything. I am really frustrated, I have taken my L twice now and failed both times. I want to be able to drive, I hate leaning on other people. Travis knows how frustrated I am with it. I was almost in tears today cause i was so frustrated. Till Travis hugged me, and thanked me...I asked him why he thanked me...He said for being you!! Then I almost cried! Finally someone will stick by my side, and love me for who I am. Sure sometimes he's a dork, but a fun dork! And I love him. Just those little words made my day so much better. Travis I love you, and thank you for putting up with me!!

few things

2009-03-01T21:07:00.000-08:00

Well we went to Vancouver to the Brad Paisley concert! It was so much fun! We went to Moxies for dinner, (Never spent that much on food before!) But it was good. Concert was awesome! Chrystal Shawanda was alright, but Dirks Bentley and Brad Paisley were amazing. Good stage performance. I got some nice pics! We got some t-shirts! So the next day we got to go to Science world. That was fun. The weather was shit, rained the whole time, but that's Vancouver for you. BUT...on the way out to mission we got stuck in a bad snow storm. It usually takes an hr at the most to get from Vancouver to get to Mission. It took us 4.5 hours!! I was so frustrated. AND...they closed the Coquhella so we decided to stay in Deroche...I got to spend some time with my aunt and her kids. And FINALLY got to see Danielle after a year and a half! And had a nice visit with grandma. We took it easy on the way home, it only took us 3.5 hrs to get home...shorter then Vancouver to Mission!! So here are some pics of the trip!

weekend!

2009-02-21T11:03:00.000-08:00

YAY the weekend is here, and my 6 days is over! That was a long week. All my residents at work are all sick:( I got the stupid cold too. so 3 more days and we are going to Vancouver for the Paisley Concert! I can't wait. We are leaving on Tuesday morning, and coming back Wednesday night! I want to go to IHOP, and out for seafood. Travis wants to go to science world, and we both want to go to the aquarium! I know they are for kids, but hey, we can be kids for a day! I can't wait. I will post pictures when we get back. I just hope we don't forget the camera!

Scary night at work...Is it worth it?

2009-02-17T13:09:00.000-08:00

So the other night we had a very very scary night at work. One of our residents became very Agitated. And started talking to himself, and getting mad. Well one point in the night he was climbing on top of the chair to climb the china cabinet, and we couldn't do anything to get him down. I noticed he was progressing all night, even after the maximum dosage of meds to calm him down. So at about 10:30 I was in with another resident, and I heard the nurse scream so loud for me. I came running down the hall, only to see that agitated resident blocking her in the kitchen, trying to get her. she was pinned between the door and the dishwasher, and she was holding with all her might to get him out. So I tried to distract him, the other care aide jumped over the servery, and into the kitchen to see if she could get the door closed on him. We tried everything to get him out. The resident was looking at me, and saying he was not moving for anyone. So the nurse grabbed the phone and called the cops! We finally distracted him with something, and managed to shut the door, he then tries to attack the other care aide, so we all made a dash to the back office. The cops arrived and took 2 of them to hold him down so we could give him an injection...He has been sleeping ever since...

Now I sit here and wonder is it worth going to work?? Ahh it was scary

Big confidence booster!

2009-02-09T12:09:00.000-08:00

So there has been some shit going on at work between a co worker and myself. I finally went to management about it. I know sometimes it's not the best idea. But I am sick of it. Last week she told me I had bad Hygiene and was going to make everyone sick. So I got a call from the CEO/DOC today, saying I have nothing to worry about because they know the work I do, and say I am doing awesome!! So that was a big confidence booster. I have been there for 3 months now and I have trained 2 people. The other care aide has been there for the same time, and she hasn't trained anyone yet! So I work with her this week...We'll see what happens!

need some blog help

2009-02-08T15:04:00.000-08:00

Can someone show me how to add tickers??

New thing!

2009-02-07T17:27:00.001-08:00

I bought myself a Nintendo DS just after Christmas. I have bought a lot of games for it. But today I got one called my weight loss coach! It comes with a pedometer, and you have to record it every day. And everyday you will have food challenges, and physical challenges. Its funny, I have no motivation for working out or eating right. But who know a simple game will help! So I recommend this game to anyone who is having problems getting motivated. Today my challenge was to take 500 steps, and record it. Put the salt in the cupboard for 24 hrs (This won't be hard cause I don't like Salt) And the other one is to cook a variety of Pasta that I never use...I always eat pasta. So I don't know what to create with it. But it's awesome. I would love to see how many steps I take at work, cause that's all I do is walk. Maybe I will post it on monday, to let you all know! And to motivate myself!

Because it's 1:00 am and I'm bored

2009-02-06T01:00:00.001-08:00

Make video montages at www.OneTrueMedia.com

ugh! I thought winter was almost over!

2009-01-26T11:18:00.000-08:00

Well It is a beautiful sunny day outside...but NOT warm. It is -30 with the windchill! To cold for me. I can't wait till winter is over, and there is no more cold...or snow on the ground. I want to be able to go out in flip flops and tank tops! Couple more months maybe?? I hope so!

So from my last post...I decided to stick with Ridgeview, I know the residents, my 3 months will be up tomorrow!! WOO Hoo! I'm sure I could go casual somewhere, but I think that would be a lot for me right now. So I will wait till something good comes up and see what happens from that!

Stumped!

2009-01-18T13:23:00.000-08:00

So I have had 2 interview offers, for an assisted living facility for a care aide, and another one for long term care/Assisted living. I am stumped on what to do. Because I like my job now, It is challenging, and hard to get back and fourth...But my 3 months are almost up, and my benefits kick in soon. But I love my residents, and I don't want to leave them. AHH Should I go to the interviews and see what they offer? Or say forget it, and stick with Ridgeview?? PLEASE someone help LOL I am stuck!!

Ahh back to work for 5 days

2009-01-09T12:44:00.001-08:00

Today is friday...My monday. I have to go back to work, wondering how crazy it was around there in the last 2 days! Next week i get 3 days off! YAY 2 days is good, but I like the 3 days! I never have anything exciting to write on here anymore lol. I am getting sick of our small apartment. I am trying to talk Travis into renting a 2-3 bdrm townhouse. That would be soo nice! Rent here is so expensive though, a townhouse would probably be like 12-1300 a month, with nothing included. Derek, Trav's brother might come back in the spring and buy one, and rent it to us cheep. I am just sick of clutter and a small kitchen, I love to cook when I'm home! But it's frustrating, cause our kitchen is soo small. I HATE IT lol. Maybe next year we can buy a house?? That would be awesome!

Well it's the time for people to have babies. I know about 5 people having babies now, and one just had one! Congrats Andrea, her baby Suvanna was born on Jan 2nd, weighing 10lbs 14oz!!! HUGE kid lol. And Shannon is due Aug 28th! One day I will get my turn:( I can't wait. I want a baby, but Travis doesn't, so I have to wait...and wait...and wait lol ONE day I will! Anyways enough baby talk, gotta go make some lunch!

aww

2009-01-05T23:00:00.000-08:00

So Travis got home from work today, not feeling good, so he laid down and had a sleep. He was in the bathroom like 5 times! So we are thinking it's food poisoning, he went back to sleep and woke up really quick. He had to throw up! It was projectile vomit! I felt soo bad for him. He is one sick boy tonight. Been throwing up all night, but seems to be getting better now. I am making some tea for him, we'll see if he can keep it down! Poor baby:(

yay! everyone having babies!

2009-01-04T09:48:00.000-08:00

I just want to say congrats to my good friend back home. Her and her finance just found out they were pregnant! She totally deserves it! She has been through a lot, and finally she is happy! She is due in July! Congrats guys, love ya lots!!

2008

2009-01-01T00:36:00.000-08:00

Well 2008 is over! I have to say, it was by far one of the best years of my life! I am happy, sucessful, and full of love! Sure there were ups and downs. But it was great. I have never felt so happy in my life. I finally have the confidance i've never had. And I don't care what i look like, or what anyone else thinks. Travis I love you, and thanks for sharing 2008 with me!!! And everyone else too, and happy 2009 to everyone!

New Years Resolutions.

1. LOSE WEIGHT!!
2. GET HELP WITH MY ADD
3. GET MY LICENCE

Lets see if they come true! lol

Lady Dies at care home in Kamloops:(

2008-12-29T00:11:00.000-08:00

I Read in the paper, and heard it around work. But didn't really want to believe it. Where I did most of my practicum, a lady escaped the center, went outside and froze to death...Only because the door was not locked. This lady that died was a resident of mine when I was there. It breaks my heart to think that because of one person not locking a door, another innocent person is dead. It really scares me. About how easy it can happen, and how quick some of the old people with dementia really are. My heart goes out to the family.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T09:22:00.001-08:00

Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!

UGH

2008-12-18T12:53:00.000-08:00

The weather is still freezing, I am getting sick of the cold...Last night our furnace died. It was soo cold in here. So we finally called the landlord, he brought over a portable heater, and we have the oven on. But it is still cold. The furnace guys should be here soon to fix it! I can't wait cause im freezing!!

3 days off!

2008-12-15T15:48:00.000-08:00

Today was my first of 3 days off. We had a great day. Travis goes back to work tomorrow, after having 9 days off. So today we went to Lordco (BLAH MAN'S STORE LOL) Then we went to the dollar store, and bought some stocking stuffers and chocolate covered cherries...We die for those. Then we went to Starbucks for a coffee and a snack. I had an eggnog latte, and Travis had a caramel Apple Cider, which tasted like Apple Pie! SO good. We went to Marks Work World, and Travis bought me a dickies Jacket! It's so nice. Not that warm...But I love it! I love spending a couple days a week together, with no work or anything. So now we are home and going to clean the house, and put up the tree! Finally, Hopefully it will feel more like Christmas around here!

All about Travis!

2008-12-12T01:18:00.000-08:00

I found this on someone's blog, thought it was neat

1.He's sitting in front of the television,what is on the screen? Home Improvement, CMT Music...Seinfeld

2.You're out to eat what kind of dressing does he get on his salad? Ranch...ALWAYS

3.What's one food he doesn't like? Hmm this is a hard one...He's really not picky...At all. Liver I guess

4.You go out to a bar what does he order? Corona of course

5. Where did he go to high school? Quesnel BC

6.What shoe size does he wear? Size 9...He's tiny!

7.If he was to collect anything what would it be? CD's...He has tons, but only listens to a few

8.What is his favourite type of sandwich? Steak and Cheese

9.What would he eat every day if he could? Pasta

10.What is his favourite cereal? Oat crunch?

11.What would he never wear? Sweat Pants...My clothes lol

12.What is his favourite sports team?Vancouver Canucks.

13.Who did he vote for? No one

14.Who is his best friend? Me! and Probably Kyle

15.What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do? He never complains to me about anything...But I would say spending money and the housework!

16.How many provinces/states has he lived in? Two

17.What is his heritage? Dutch

18.You bake him a cake for his birthday what would it be? Guinness came his mom makes

19.Did he play sports in high school? Basketball, Volly Ball

20.What could he spend hours doing? Singing

21.What's something cool about him? He has patients for me! I am a messy housekeeper, and he helps me with it. He will do anything for me, and not complain about it. We can laugh till we cry, and tell each other our secrets, Whats not cool about him??

had a fun day!

2008-12-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

Today we were supposed to go to Quesnel for a couple days, but the roads were really bad, and we didn't want to risk driving, and the other peoples driving. So Trav and I spent the day window shopping at costco, and tried all the taste tests. I think we were in there for about 2 hrs just looking around. We left with 4 jugs of orange juice lol. We were looking at rings...JUST LOOKING! LOL and I seen one that was 17000.00 I was amazed! That's more then our car! I couldn't believe it. Then we went grocery shopping! That took a long time, we are both tired now lol. Travis fell asleep on the couch and I am watching TV. I bought tickets for the Corb Lund band!!! and I got floor seats! If you don't know who Corb Lund is, he sings Truck got Stuck, Hurten Albertan...Calverey. He has a different kind of music! I can't wait though. Then I go back to work on wednesday.

I finally have the sister i never had!!

2008-11-30T00:46:00.000-08:00

I am so excited! I am finally going to have the sister i never had! Jason and Ashley are engaged! YAY I am so excited! He called me like 10 mins after he did it! I can't believe it! Hopefully my turn will be soon! Congrats Jason, Love you lots@

2 years!

2008-11-28T13:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Travis and I have been together for 2 years! I don't know where the time has gone! I guess time flies when your having fun lol. It's been a good 2 years. We have been through a lot, but we stood by each other. He was my biggest support when i was going to school, and still is. He's my rock!! Sure we had our rough times, and will in the future too. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I believe in fate. LOL think what you want. But I think we were meant to be, I just got out of a 4 year relationship, and so did he. And somehow when we weren't expecting it in the least we met! I hope these two years will turn into 20 years, 40, 60 years, and we grow old together. Travis I love you!! When we first started dating, all I heard for a long time is that he was a rebound bf, and it wasn't going to last! But i thought different. 2 years later, some rebound bf hey!

hmm not sure what to write!

2008-11-23T11:04:00.000-08:00

Well I haven't posted in a long time...Not sure if anyone reads my blog anyways, so i've kind of given up! I am going to go take me learner's tomorrow! Maybe...I really want to drive, and feel I am ready. Just not sure If I am ready to take the test and pass it. but we'll see i guess!

Work is going alright. I had my first palliative resident. Which was kind of hard to see. But we did it, he ended up passing away 2 days later...Kind of scary, but hey it's all part of life! Other then that nothing to exciting happening at work. The men are interesting, I love it a lot. Just need to build more confidence.

I have today off, Travis will be home at about 2:30! I finally get to see him today and tomorrow for a bit. I am not liking these afternoon shifts! Oh well. Anyways I am going to go study for a but, and clean my house!

thought I might update!

2008-11-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

Nothing to much happening here, I am working lots! Last night I did a double shift, 16 hrs! OMG what a long night! I am so tired today. And now I am craving coffee! So my awesome hunny is making me some! YAY. It's so nice having Travis back home! It's hard to believe our 2 yr anniversary is coming up! I know we have been through rough times, and fun times, it's all been worth it. I don't have much to right tonight, I am tired and want to watch TV. I called in sick tonight cause I am to tired. We are going to watch dancing with the stars, then go to bed!

Work!

2008-11-02T14:32:00.000-08:00

Work is going great. I am on my second day off now, and I am excited to go back. The ward I am on is Severe dementia! They are a lot of fun, but a handful. On Friday everyone was in a weird mood. They do something called sundowning in the evening, which is where they get very agitated and aggressive. And being Halloween too it effects them. So I gathered all the residents around the table and started passing the ball around. Now we have a couple residents that are in a vegetative state, and they were even tossing the ball around. It was amazing, seeing how they still function a bit! Then after that everyone was good, and all calmed down. I just thought I would share that story, It sure makes my job worth going to. I am really enjoying it, i just have to get some good shoes. I get home and my feet swell so bad!

Travis has been gone since Tuesday. I am missing him soo much! I can't wait till he comes home! Anyways I am going down town to get some cheep leftover Halloween candy lol!! I need chocolate!

YAY!

2008-10-27T12:08:00.000-07:00

So I got a call today from Hamlets saying they will offer me a casual position...I took it! But I just got a call from Ridgeview, and they offered me NIGHTS!!!! full time! WOO HOO I can't wait!!

UGH!

2008-10-22T07:41:00.000-07:00

I have an interview at 10:00 this morning at the Hamlets, and one tomorrow too! I did not get any sleep last night, or the night before. I am freaking out! But I am feeling confident about this! YAY wish me luck, and i will wish for sleep tonight! I doubt I will get any sleep tho! Anyways gotta go get ready! Chow for now

Concert was awesome

2008-10-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

So we got to go to the concert! It was awesome. We got to meet them, get pictures and get their autographs! Amanda is so nice and friendly. Here are some cool pictures.

Good news! I have an interview on Thursday!! YAY

I hate this date with a passion, October 19

2008-10-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

It's been 2 yrs and I still hate this date, I hate hearing it. To this day it still gives me chills and tears to my eyes. On this day 2 years ago, I have never felt to hurt and alone. Someone riped my heart out and stomped on it a million times, left me in the middle of no where. With no one else around. I felt like dying. It was by far the worst day of my life. I don't miss the fact that we broke up, it's not about that. It's about how I felt, how alone and scared I was. I want to make this a good day. Even though it was such a horrible week after the 19th, and I thought my life was over. It was just beginning. And I couldn't have asked for anything better. I have grown in so many ways in 2 yrs. I'm not that stupid girl that was to dependent on others. I am going to make this day a good day. Dinner with the grandparents (Travis') and then the Wilkinson's concert! WOOO HOOO. Travis I love you more then anything!

no luck yet

2008-10-16T12:24:00.000-07:00

Well i have had NO luck with a job, not even a phone call. Oh well it will come. I am starting to keep myself busy. Baking and cooking lots! Yesterday I made chocolate fudge! OMG it's so good, but so strong and sweet. Travis has 3 days off. So we are busy cleaning the house and stuff. I want to bake. I want fresh bread. I have never made it, but I will attempt to make it. I also want to make cinnamon buns, and pizza dough. LOL can u tell i'm bored? Tonight we are going to have hamburgers and salad! I can't wait. Haven't had homemade burgers in a long time. We are going to go see a movie tonight, then go to Karaoke for a bit. Sunday we are going to a concert. The Wilkinsons I can't wait! It's gonna be fun, we might even be able to meet the band! Free tickets from a friend of ours! YAY. Anyways we are off for more job hunting, wish me luck!!

Leave some comments!!!!!!

When will i get over the fact??

2008-10-11T12:58:00.000-07:00

I don't think I will ever get over the fact my dad is not around anymore. I miss him so much all the time. Most days i don't think about him, because I get so emotional. My dad was a huge part in my life, and I will never get over that he is gone, and we don't know where he is. Last night i actually cried over it. I try so hard not to, but some days I wish so bad that he was here in my life. It's so hard to say and think this...But i don't even know what he sounds like any more:( It has almost been a year and a half since I seen him. Christmas is coming, it will be our 7th Christmas not together. I was 17 when I got to spend the last Christmas with him, and we moved a short month later. So tomorrow is thanksgiving, I have to say I am thank full for how he was a great father, and all the memories I have of him. When I miss him I can sit down and remember the times when we were small, and then I touch my left shoulder, knowing he is with me, looking over me. Daddy's little girl always! I would do anything to hear his voice, and give him a big hug and kiss, and hold his hand. Tell him stories that he has missed in the passed years. Let him know about his grand daughter and grandson! I think he would be the best grandpa ever. When I went to see him the last time, he carried a baby picture of Mercede in his wallet, he looked pretty proud! When I do see him again one day, one year I will tell him to never leave, cause I can't do this anymore! Dad I love you more than anything in the world. Thanks for the memories and the kisses. Happy Thanksgiving where ever you are!! I love you!!!

Can't trust anyone

2008-10-09T18:59:00.000-07:00

You know how you think u can trust family members? Or parents even! Today I called to change my income tax address so it can go to my house, not my moms. So all that was done and good. I also asked the lady if i could get my income tax return sent to my address too. I have not received my income tax return for 2006 and 2004 i think, and they sent them to my moms house. One was almost 400.00 and another was almost 200.00 I asked my mom many times to send them back to me, and she said she did, so I waited and waited. She made excuses blah blah blah. Well the lady said today that all the checks have been cashed, including 2 of my other GST checks! So my mother and her dumb ass bf probably forged my signature and cashed my checks!! I am setting up an investigation, and if it is her, I might sue her, and she will be charged for fraud. Almost 1000.00 worth, I hate doing it, but I feel I have to!

BLAH no luck yet!

2008-10-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

Well I have been graduated for a week now, and have not gotten one call. I went out Monday and Tuesday and Thursday. But I think some of the managers are away. So my fingers are crossed for some calls next week. I'm sure they will come. I think our instructor mis led us on how many jobs are actually out there. I don't know whats going to happen to all the other grads coming out soon. TCC has another RCA class starting on Oct. 7th...so monday! They will be graduated in march! Hopefully there will be new jobs, or even another facility, cause there are 4 schools of RCA's. Kind of stupid if you ask me! Oh well. I am stressed to the max, I have NO money. I haven't been this stressed in a long time. But it will work out, even if i have to find a different Job. I told Travis tonight I should apply to Convergys till i find something full time! HAHA that will never happen! anyways I gotta go, bored of writing! Who ever checks my blog from Kelowna, Who are you!? Leave me a comment! I want to know who reads my blogs! Thanks!

Grad Pictures

2008-09-28T17:55:00.000-07:00

well I am officially an RCA!!

2008-09-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

Last night was my graduation! It was awesome. I had so much family there! I was blessed with many gifts, which i was surprised! I got 2 dozen yellow roses from Travis' grandma, and a vase that has my name and Grad 2008 on it. I got a Necklace from Travis and some nice Hawaiian Ginger body spay, lotion and wash! I got a watch that goes on my scrub shirt, that has my name on it and grad 2008 from Travis' parents. A huge picture calloge from my moms family, Grandma and aunty trena and the girls! And a bunch more stuff! Travis' dad got up and said a speech! He made me cry. My mom even got up and said something! I was just so blessed to have all my family there. Mom is still here...snoring on the couch! We are all going to go for breakfast soon, then Travis' parents and mom are going to go back home. Travis called in sick today, so I can spend a day with him!!!

ALL DONE

2008-09-26T15:52:00.000-07:00

YAY It's finally here!! I graduate tomorrow! Mom will be here tomorrow! So will the rest of my family!!!

exciting!

2008-09-23T18:44:00.000-07:00

Well tomorrow is my last day of Practicum!! I can't believe it! 3 more days till grad! WOW, 6 months went by fast! Feels like yesterday I met everyone from class! I can't believe in 3 days I will be done!!! The last days of practicum are a little nerve racking though. I have been on this floor for 4 shifts now, and I am expected to get everyone up on my own tomorrow, with no help from the care aide! I was so frustrated at work today, I started crying. My instructor came in and talked with my care aide, and she told her I needed to be faster, and I wasn't doing good, so they wanted to hold me back for another couple days! BULL SHIT. Before I was moved I was getting everyone up and ready for breakfast by 9:00 AM..My old care aide is the best! I am really going to miss her! ANYWAYS...I have a lot of people coming to grad. Trav's parents are coming, my mom, both grandma's aunty Trena and the girls, and Katherine, Aunty Colleen and her girls, and then aunty Gail after she is done work! We are all going to go for Chinese food!! Well I gotta go clean up from dinner! I will post pics after grad!

Thank you!

2008-09-18T19:02:00.000-07:00

Well today is Sept. 18th I graduate on the 27th! I can't believe it's coming to an end! I can't wait for grad. I have a lot of family coming! Grandma Russell is coming, then my aunty Trena and Grandma Armstrong and the 4 girls, my mom and Ross maybe, and then Travis' parents! I just want to say thank you to everyone who has supported me in the last 6 months! It's been great! I am ready to get out and work as a Care Aid tho!

Travis' birthday was on Monday. We went to Tony Roma's. We got all dressed up and everything! I got some cool pictures that I will add when I get them on the computer. We had a great night! I got him a promise ring for his birthday, so he is stuck with me forever! (Hopefully)Our relationship has grown so much in the last 2 yrs, i can't imagine being without him! He is my other half! Anyways gotta go

Survey thing

2008-09-15T16:14:00.000-07:00

The theory is that you will learn a lot of little things
about your friends that you might not have known!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
9:00
2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
College Road Trip

4.What is your favorite TV show?
CSI Miami, Cold Case, According to Jim...Lots more

5.What do you usually have for breakfast?
Nothing

6.What is your middle name?
Rebeckah

7.What food do you dislike?
cooked veggies, peppers, squash, don't really like eggs...depends

8.What is your favorite CD at moment?
country mix, all we haveis burnt cd's

9. What kind of car do you drive?
none! but will drive a Mazda Protage 5

10. Favorite sandwich?
Egg salad, BLT...
11.What characteristic do you despise?
Slutty girls looking for attention!

12. Favorite item of clothing?
pj pants, my robe! LOL

13.If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Hawaii

14.Favorite brand of clothing?
Doesnt matter what brand, im not picky

15.Where would you retire to?
Italy!

16. What was your most recent memorable birthday?
my 22nd. I had a suprise party, last birthday I was sick

17. Favorite sport to watch?
hmm hockey

18.Farthermost place you are sending this?
Quesnel, Abbotsford

19.Person you expect to send it back first?
no one lol

20.When is your birthday?
July 2nd
21.Are you a morning person or a night person?
night

22.What is your shoe size?
9

23.Pets?
no:(

24.Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
I graduate in 12 days...dont think it's new tho

25.What did you want to be when you were little?
Nurse! Still want to...half way there!

26.How are you today?
Tired, hungry and excited

27. What is your favorite candy?
chocolate bars

28.What is your favorite flower?
roses

29.What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
Sept. 27

30.What is your full name?
Sarah Rebeckah Russell

31.What are you listening to right now?
Oprah

32.What was the last thing you ate?
Fries at the mall

33. Do you wish on stars?
ya with Travis

34. IF you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Red

35. How is the weather right now?
sunny and blue sky

36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today?
my hunny! It's his birthday

37. Favorite soft drink?
Pepsi

38. Favorite restaurant?
East Side Marios

39. Real hair color?
light brown

40.What was your favorite toy as a child?
My dolls...I cant remember

41.Summer or winter?
winter

42. Hugs or kisses?
both

43. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate if it's food, vanilla if it's scent

44. Coffee or tea?
Tea
45. Do you want your friends to email you back?
Yes

46. When was the last time you cried?
not long ago...

47. What is under your bed?
nothing, there's no under lol

48. What did you do last night?
sat around bored. Watched TV

49. What are you afraid of ?
Losing Travis

50. Salty or sweet?
depends on my mood, sometimes both together!

51.How many keys on your key ring?

lots

52. How many years at your current job?
right now I don't have a job, havnt since April

53. Favorite day of the week?
weekends

54. How many towns have you lived in?
to many to count. Deroche, Quesnel, Airdrie, Kamloops

55. Do you make friends easily?
Not at all

56. How many people will you send this to?
who knows
57.How many will respond?
who knows

YAY

2008-09-10T17:30:00.000-07:00

Nothing to exciting ever happening here! Went to the dentist today...TWICE lol once at 10 for a filling, then 3:30 for x-rays and cleaning ((I HATE CLEANINGS)) My dentist is WONDERFUL. We are going to talk about porcelain vinears which will make my front teeth strait!! I know they will be expensive, but well worth it! I will talk to him more about it on the 27th. I have to go back in and get 2 more fillings done. Then hopefully thats it.

Travis is leaving tomorrow for 5 days. He is going to Quesnel! I want to go with him, but I still have school. But his parents are coming down for my graduation, so thats ok! I sure miss them though, I was telling Travis I want to go with him, and wake up to mom's coffee and homeade muffins for breakfast, and late night talks!!! AHHH i miss them! lol

Anyways gonna go have some dinner, we got papa murphy's pizza Garlic Chicken!!! MMMM

nothing to much happening

2008-09-04T18:41:00.000-07:00

Just thought I would post something small! Not much to say here. School is almost done YAY. I bought my dress the other day, it's nice and black, now I need shoes and a shawl to go with it, cause knowing me, i will be cold!! Now I don't have any fashion sense at ALL. So it is a black dress, all black I don't know what kind of shoes to get for it...Should they be white, or black? And what kind of shawl should I get, or a little jacket! Please someone leave me a comment and HELP me! LOL, I guess thats it for now, gonna go eat dinner now. Back to work for 4 days now! TTYL

My Trip...and more

2008-08-29T10:57:00.000-07:00

Well I thought I would write about my trip to Fort Nelson! We didn't do very much, but it was a lot of fun. I loved being with Mercede and Braydon! Mercede loved having me there too. I got lots of good pictures as you can see! I had a nice visit with Ashley, and Jason when he was home! She taught me how to cook!! She is an awesome cook, so one day I wrote out a bunch of recipes from her! Now I have to try and make them! I had a hard time leaving. I wish they didnt live so far away. When Jason dropped me off at the airport he stayed for a couple mins. I had to wait about an hr for my flight. He gave me a hug and then left. I had tears in my eyes. So I went and sat down at waited. About 5 mins later Jay walked back in!!! He called his boss, and stayed with me till my flight left! I felt so special! I am glad me and Jason are so close! Its cool talking to someone that knows what I went through as a kid, because he went through it too! I talked to Ashley the other day, she said Mercede still looks for me calling my name! I was going through Mercede With drawls lol. I am getting used to it now! Braydon was pretty cute too, but needed his mom a lot, next time I see him he will be big and different! Hope you all enjoyed the pictures! I love them!!

Well I finally went to the dentist yesterday to get my root canal done. Took 3.5 hrs to do it. My jaw is sore today! But it's worth it. I found a new dentist! He was awesome. And did it in one shot! I am glad my old dentist didn't do it.

Back to work on Monday till the 24th of Sept. Then 2 days in class, then Grad on the 27th! I was checking the Kamloops Obituaries for some reason the other day, and found out that one of my residents passed away 2 days after I left for my 2 week break:( I know that that's why they are in there, but it's still hard to say good bye! When I left he was doing great. Oh well, may he R.I.P

Well thats all for now. I will post again when I feel like it ! lol

2008-08-26T15:31:00.000-07:00

pictures

2008-08-26T15:16:00.000-07:00

Well I am home from Fort Nelson! I had a great trip. and Flight!! It is nice being home though. I got home to 2 dozen roses and dinner on the table!!! It was so nice. I am going to upload some pics right now, and blog later, I am making cookies!!

UGH to the heat! YAY for the holidays!!

2008-08-15T18:22:00.000-07:00

Well it is extremely hot here this week. It's been between 30-36 here. Today was muggy and about 36!! Today is finally the 15th!! That means my 2 weeks break starts today!! We all went out for a drink after work today. I get to go to Jason's in 3 more days! I know for a fact I will get homesick, but it will be fun! And nice to be back, for another week off!! It's nice to wear normal clothes again for once. I got home today and jumped in the shower! Ahh that was nice! Tomorrow I am going to go to chilliwack with a friend to pick up her kids, then coming home and going to dinner at another friends place!! I HAVE FRIENDS!!! HAHAHA I am going to go and relax with Travis now. If I don't post before monday, i will take pics at Jason's and do a big picture post!! YAY

Happy Birthday my Angel

2008-08-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

Today is dad's birthday. Just wanted to say Happy birthday to my daddy. I miss you lots, and can't wait to see you again one day! Next year he will be the big 50!! I love you my angel

YAY

2008-08-11T18:29:00.000-07:00

YAY so the exam results are back! Our class has the highest passing rate yet!! 10% Above the average through the nation!!!! WOO HOO CLASS the highest mark was 94% the lowest was 71% I passed with 78% on my exam, and 91% in class work!!!! I am so happy. Today we started at a new facility, it looks awesome! Care aides are their for the residents, and have been there for a long time!

One more week then I get to go to Jason's and see my babies!! I will take some pics of the babies!

A friend of mine and I went to the wild life park yesterday, the weather was kind of crappy but it was fun! Here are some pics!

Nice weekend!

2008-08-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

We had a good weekend. Travis' dad came up, and Travis Derek Dad n I went out to scotch creek and played mini golf and went to the beach. It was a nice day out, Derek (Trav's Brother) had us over for a yummy bbq. We had BBQ chicken and salad. Then dad came out to Karaoke with us. He enjoyed it...and his scotch!! Then Sunday morning we went out for breakfast and Dad went home:( It was a short visit, but nice. Scotch Creek was awesome. I want to go back, and hopefully camp. I get a 2 week break coming up soon. I am going to Ft. Nelson for a week, then hopefully Travis can take a week off and go camping! Crossing my fingers for scotch creek! Tonight we went over to a friends place, she made us dinner, and we sang karaoke! I actually sang too. It was fun...even though I sucked. Anyways just thought I would post for people that read my blog! Till i decide to post again! TTYAL!

I guess I should update...

2008-08-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

Well I haven't posted in a while. Everything is going good here. School is good. Practicum is getting tiring, I have to get used to being on my feet for 8 hrs a day. I moved to a different ward. They are easier to handle. They are still total care, but can walk. But I miss my old residents. I think I might do my other part of the practicum where I first started. I just have to get used to everything up there, and get more organized.

Travis's dad is up here this weekend. We went for dinner last night, and we might go mini golfing in Scotch Creek if it's nice out.

I'm not sure who all knows, but my dad has joined the military. He left in June:( Now I don't know if I will ever see him again. Oh well. When I do get to see him, i will be happy!! Who knows, I could be married and have a family by then. Life goes on tho I guess.

Well I am going to go make some breakfast. Have a good one! Leave some comments!!

...bored

2008-07-25T23:03:00.000-07:00

Well I started my practicum, and i'm really liking it. I love the ward I am on, and I love my residents. I am on the severe dementia ward. It looks very intimidating at first because the residents can not walk, and most can't talk. It is total care. But to wake them up in the morning, and listen to them talk and see the smiles on their faces, it's worth the hard work and more. Yesterday I took a lady outside and she loved it...Now remember they have severe dementia...She asked for ME this morning!! I have been there for a week now, and I know my residents really well. I can't wait to actually start working full time! We have our final exam on Monday! AHH wish me luck!!

This past weekend, Travis and I went to Quesnel for billy barker days. We got to see a band called Murquery, they sounded just like Queen. They were from Germany! We spent the whole weekend at the rodeo. I will add some pics. It was my first Rodeo, and I loved it!! I got really sun burned though UGH Anyways enough for now!

hmm I wonder

2008-07-16T17:39:00.000-07:00

I have that new tracker on my blog. I noticed that someone looked at my blog from Kelowna. Please if you look at my blog Leave a comment. Not sure if it's you or not dad. But if it is my number is 250-572-1445 I know it's probably bad to leave my number on here, but I need to know if it's him. Thanks

Finally!!

2008-07-15T22:13:00.000-07:00

Finally it's time for practicum. Tomorrow is our last official day in the class! I am so excited. I found out what ward I am working on too. I will be on 3b which is for the non ambulatory Dementia ward. So it will be total care. I was put with a friend of mine, Geneva. We will be good together, we are both quiet and will work good as a team. Tomorrow we are having a big luncheon and the school administer is getting us gifts! I am excited. We are also getting our picture taken for grad. Everything is coming to an end so quick! I am amazed on how fast it went. 7 more weeks till grad! Which means 7 weeks to lose as much weight as I can! I am going to have to get used to getting up early again. Well I better get to bed, morning comes fast! Have a good rest of the week, and weekend everyone!

Almost done!

2008-07-11T15:55:00.000-07:00

Well we officially have 3 days of theory then we go into practicum! I can not wait to be hands on and meet my residents! The last 3 days have been kind of hard because we have not had an instructor. She has been very sick with the flu. So we have mostly been studying for our final. Yesterday was like high school drama all over again though. Wasn't very much fun. I can't wait till it's all done though!

I booked my flight to fort Nelson the other day! I am excited about that too. Can't wait to see my family. I am kind of upset with my family...My grandmother called the other day to come see everyone. She also told me to leave Travis outside...So if everyone is wondering why we didnt show up this weekend...ask grandma! Oh well I hope one day we can put everything behind us.

Gotta go for now, dinner is done, have a good weekend everyone!!

Havnt posted in a while

2008-07-06T21:27:00.000-07:00

well I haven't posted in a while, so I thought I should. Nothing to exciting happening here.I have one more week of school, and we start our practicum. I am excited. We are all moved into our new place now! It was a VERY very long day and move. Just me and Trav it took us 16 hours! But we are all unpacked and everything now! YAY. The weather has been soo hot. When we moved the humidex was 41 degrees! We nearly died. Thank god in this place it is cooler, so we can't feel the heat as bad. We went to Quesnel last weekend, got to surprise Judy and Reiny!! (Travis' parents) We took them out to dinner for their anniversary. Then we went to Dwayne and Lorraine's Family reunion. The day we left I got food poisoning really bad,I didn't feel good until Wednesday or Thursday. Wednesday was my 24th birthday, I had school, and then Travis and I went to dinner at Chapters View Point. It was beautiful. I am going to post some pics of the view! So for anyone who reads my blog, I know where my dad is now! I am excited just to know he is ok. I am going to try and get enough nerve to ask him to come to my grad! So he can meet Travis' parents. My mom hasnt been doing to good. We need to get her help as soon as we can! Before she gets to far. Well I gotta go for now, I will post some pics from my birthday!

Braydon Luke Tyler everyone!

2008-06-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

Baby!!

2008-06-25T17:49:00.000-07:00

Well I am an aunty times two! I now have one of each! Breydon Luke Tyler was born this morning at 8:16 am! He weighed 8lbs 1oz! Jason called me, and Breydon was crying so loud cause he was hungry, but couldnt eat cause Ashley was getting stitched up! I can't wait to meet my Nephew!!! Congrats Jason, Ashley and Mercede! Welcome baby Breydon!

Nothing to exciting!

2008-06-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

So nothing to much new here. School is over in a couple weeks! Well not over over, but we start our practicum on July 16th! It will be nice! Then our final is on July 28th! Haven't really heard anything about dad yet! But we are getting there. The cop that is helping me is great! So 2 more days then I am an aunty again! And 8 days I will be 24! I cant believe I am 24! I remember when I was 3! Funny what you can remember! Anyways gonna go cool down, you can tell its summer now! Hot and muggy! Oh well! Anyways gonna add some pictures! It's neat looking at pictures when you were younger, and now!

Happy Fathers Day Dad and Jason!

2008-06-15T10:13:00.000-07:00

Happy fathers day to my daddy and Brother Jason!! Never thought I would be saying that to Jason!! Here are some nice daddy pics!!

I cant live not knowing where he is. So it is me again who must contact him!

2008-06-14T15:44:00.000-07:00

Well I am at it again. I am finding my dad. I am not sure what everyone will think or anything. He is my father, I cant live without knowing where he is. He is my guardian angel, my hero, I look up to him. Even at times like this. I have started something. I wont say much here. If u want to know, you can call me, or msg me. All I need is support. I dont want to hear that he doesnt care about me. Because I know he always will. Anyways wish me luck!

Baby and other things!

2008-06-12T21:20:00.000-07:00

Yay I am soo excited! I am going to be an aunty again really soon! Can't say the date, but sometime within the next couple weeks...I am so happy for my brother and Ashley! They are awesome parents. Mercede is lucky to have them. So to my Brother, sister-in-law, and Niece CONGRATULATIONS!! Not only are they having another baby, they just bought their first house! I called him yesterday and they were just setting up, and Mercede was trying to help! She is such a doll!! I am going to go visit them in August!! Long 30 hr bus ride, but well worth it!

School is exhausting right now, I don't know why, all I want to do is sleep. Not feeling good, no energy, no appetite, Just want to sleep! Hopefully it will go away soon, I think it's from the pain I am in right now, with my tendinitis, my ankle was very swollen yesterday, and I can barely walk on it. Stupid dr's here are well...stupid. He told me there was nothing for it, so i told my instructor at school and she said there is lots, if I don't do anything now i will need surgery. And also my tooth is infected again, so I have to go to the dentist next week. Maybe once my foot and mouth heal I will be better! I hope so!!

Tomorrow we are going to go to Barrier for karaoke! There are like 10 of us regulars going. It's going to be fun! Then saturday and sunday we will clean and do laundry and pack, cause we have to move at the end of the month! We dont really want to move now, cause we made this our home, but I am sure we can make our new place a home too!
Anyways Gotta go, gonna clean up and go to bed!

Leave some comments!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss you dad

2008-06-10T18:11:00.000-07:00

I really don't like these days:( The days when I cant get him off my mind, wondering if he's OK. I went to school today, and we talked about mental health problems, and things that lead to it. I shared my story about him, and it was very emotional. I wonder if he knows I am always thinking about him, or if he knows I have days where I cant function without knowing where he is. I had to leave school early today, I was having such a hard time. It didn't help I had a dream about him last night. I found him, and he came to live with us!! Next weekend is fathers day. I will buy him a little gift and a card, just so he knows I am thinking about him. I wish he realized how much he means to me and how much I miss him and love him! I am hoping tomorrow will be a better day. I just feel like hiding till I feel better again! Thanks for listening, who ever is reading this, and dad I miss you and love you soo much.

ooooh great

2008-06-07T12:05:00.000-07:00

So when I got to see Ashley and Mercede 2 weeks ago my foot started swelling and it was sort of painful, I didnt think anything of it, just thought it was bad support in my shoes. But in the last week it has gotten really painful and the pain went into my heal and the other side of my foot. Feels like the bone is bruised. So I went to the doctor the other day, turns out I have really bad tendinitis in my ankle and heal! GREAT. I am wanting to go to the gym so bad, but I cant because I have to stay off it as much as I can, I got an ankle brace for support, but it still hurts like crazy. I am hoping it will get better within the next month, because I start my practicum next month. And I will be on my feet all day! ugh it's painful. Anyways Better go clean my house!! Have a gooder!!

Weight loss and stuff!

2008-06-02T20:22:00.000-07:00

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Well I started my diet today. It has been going good. Craving carbs though, I want a piece of bread or pasta!! LOL cant have it though, it's alright, i will survive and it will be worth it in the end. Here is a list of what I ate today!

Breakfast: 1 egg scrambled
Snack: No fat plain yogurt, and 3 onion rings!:O
Lunch: Chicken salad, with hard boiled egg and fat free dressing
Dinner: Salad with mushrooms and egg, and 2 small pieces of roast beef, and lots of water.

So right now I am 224 lbs...so my scale says. My goal weight for right now is 175 lbs, It's horrible but I will do it!!

missing Dad and Jay!

2008-05-31T23:19:00.000-07:00

Today has been a hard day. I am missing my family. I miss my dad, and Jason. I never get to talk to them, I don't even know where Dad is. Mercede and Ashley are so lucky to have Jay! He is a great guy. I got to talk to him tonight! Not for long but I did, I told him i missed him, and that I loved him! Wish I could do that with my dad! Here are some old pics of them! Brings back memories

Mercede Lynn

2008-05-29T18:41:00.000-07:00

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12 more hours

2008-05-23T21:19:00.000-07:00

It's finally almost Saturday! LOL only if my niece knew how much Aunty misses her! I really can't wait any more! To everyone I wont be able to see this weekend, I am very sorry, I am going to be in Deroche, if anyone really wants to see me! I wont be there to long. But long enough to spend time with my niece! I cant wait. Miss you lots baby girl!

I have been updating my blog a lot. But haven't gotten any comments. So leave a comment who ever reads this, even if I don't know who you are! Thanks, I will post pics when i get back of my beautiful girl! CANT WAIT!

Can you blame me for being frustrated?

2008-05-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

I am so frustrated right now. I just found out Ashley has been in Kamloops since the 17th, and does not have time to come see me. So she is down for a whole month, and I get to see her one day! I don't get it. I even asked her if she wanted to go for coffee or something when i get off school...she said no, im to busy, thats when my family gets home!! Great sister in law I have! I really want to see my niece. But she doesn't give 2 shits what I want. Anyways enough about that, at least I get to see them for ONE whol day! UGH Anyways gotta go have a shower and get ready for school!! Have a good day everyone!

awesome weekend! Great weather and pics!!

2008-05-19T21:17:00.000-07:00

This weekend was great, we went to Wells Grey Park on Saturday! We got to see Helmken falls, which is 3 times taller then Niagara Falls! It was breath taking. Then we got to see Baily's Chute. It was a little hike to get there, but it was fun. Travis had a beautiful butterfly land on his finger...I think that means good luck right?? We seen about 5 deer on the side of the road. And a black bear! It was so neat. He was so close. I am going to add some pictures of the beautiful waterfalls!!

Weekend!! and Hotness

2008-05-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

I am excited. Travis has the weekend off, and its HOT. So we were gonna be busy today, u know, house hunting, grocery shopping, wash the car, blah blah blah. Totally was not looking forward to it. So we changed our minds and are going out to Wells Grey Park for the day, for a picnic, and to take pics! I am excited. It is going to be 32 degrees today! But it looks cloudy and Windy, so it will be nice. Travis and I both fell asleep on the couches last night though, I didnt have a very good sleep. But oh well I will be ok.

Yesterday we had like 3 hrs for school. We got our 6 week evaluation yesterday, mine was good, I currently got 92% in all 6 modules so far, so I am doing good. We are going to be going into our 7th week. Yesterday after school, a bunch of girls and I went out to the old Tranquille farm, which is an old mental institution, kind of like esendale if anyone knows about that one. We walked around and looked at all the old building, it was kind of creepy because it said no trespassing all over, but we went anyways, we are going to find the owner, and see if we can go for a tour with all of our class.

Anyways gotta go get ready, gonna head out soon. I am bringing the camera so I will post some pics when I have the time. Have a great long weekend everyone!!

UGH, Summer has arrived!!

2008-05-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well I think summer arrived early this year...Back to the Kamloops dry heat! It is may 15th, and it is supposed to get up to 30 degrees, and tomorrow is gonna be 32!!! I guess I have to get used to it. 32 was nothing compared to last year. Try 10 degrees hotter. I KNOW!! 42 degrees!! AHHH to hot for me. And we have labs all day at work, so I cant even wear summer clothes! Gotta wear scrubs!! Not looking forward to it. Anyways I better go, gotta get ready and go to school!

Interesting, boring and excitement

2008-05-12T16:58:00.000-07:00

Well it's been a boring couple weeks at school, we are into the dry stuff, like measurement, blood pressure all that kind of doctor stuff. We got to go up to Kamloops Seniors Village today. It was fun, we got to play with the lifts. There has been some problems going on at school with a girl I am sitting with and I, she is a prissy girl who makes me look 10 inches tall, she treats me like a 4 yr old, and talks over me. So the instructor has been noticing it. She took me out today and talked to me about it, so hopefully tomorrow i will be ok! God people, this isnt high school again, i didn't pay 6000.00 to get treated like that. Oh well I am a big girl, and not worried about it. But who cares. Anyways we all went out for lunch today while we were up there, and someone decided to drink. BEER!! So as soon as she got back she was kicked out. We'll see if she comes back, How stupid and careless can you be?? YOUR AT SCHOOL!!!

Enough about school, my weekend was pretty boring, all i did was homework. It's the long weekend next weekend and it's supposed to be HOT!! Up to 30! And Travis doesn't have to work, so I am not sure what we are doing, I cant wait though, I like it when he doesn't work. I just realized we have lived together for a year now!! And It has also been a year since we moved from Quesnel!!

Im not sure what this world is coming too, global warming is horrible. I say that because I am watching the news, and they just showed the huge earthquake in China, and the the cyclone? Thats so sad:(

Anyways I better go, I have homework to do. WOOHOO!

Survey

2008-05-09T20:21:00.000-07:00

Your ex is driving next to you, what do you do? Wave at him, havnt heard from him in almost a year

Where is your significant other at the moment? He's at work, will be home soon!!

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Today!!!

What is the last thing you spent money on? Food, DQ yesterday for lunch, sucks having it next door to school

Who is the most attractive male on your facebook friends list? Travis of course!

If you had to sleep with one of your teachers who would it be? Umm ewww

Congratulations! You just had a daughter!! What's her name? Kaydence Danielle!!

What are you craving right now?
more sleep

What was the last thing you cried about?
my momma

When you buy something and your change is 2 cents do you keep it or tell them to keep it? probably keep it, cause they just hand it to you, but i never use cash

Have you ever blocked someone on facebook before? I dont think so

Do you think you're a hoe? Not at all. I have one and only one partner!

Are you happy? Never been so happy. Good career, good place, awesome man!! Everything I could want

Who came over last night? no one came over

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? My stupid cousin always did

What was the last movie you watched at home? hmmm I can't remember, SWATT i think

Where do you hurt? My head

What's something fun you did today? Went to Dairy Queen for ice cream with Katina

When is your birthday? July 2nd

Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? I can't remember

What kind of milk do you drink? 1% sometimes 2%

What are you going to do after this? Sleep, got a headache

Do you like pickles? Yeah

Favorite pop tart flavor?
chocolate or smore !

What are your plans for the weekend? Relax and homework, gym

Do you like the color green? Not really

Who was the last person to send you a text message and what was it? Travis, said HI

Last restaurant you went to? DQ

How many hours did you sleep last night? 6?? I have no idea

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle? Tried to

Do you like your name? Yeah I do, my first name is nice and old fashion, and I like the spelling of my middle name. Rebeckah

What do you do when you are bored? Sleep, eat...NOT GOOD

Do you have a job? no, I am going to school full time

What is your current mood? Bitchy achy, thirsty

What made you laugh last? Travis when he called. He's just so cute

What are you doing now? this survey, and watching something on the food network

What is your favorite song? Can't hide Beautiful...and some others

Who is your best friend? Travis, Danielle

Most visited website? Facebook and Craigslist right now(looking for a place to rent)

Do you have a car? No, but when i start work in September, I will get my license and buy a car

How tall are you? 5'5

Did your last kiss mean anything? It always does. I kissed Travis goodbye this morning...he was still sleeping

just a boring update! Need some help!

2008-05-02T15:30:00.000-07:00

Well School is going great, I got 93% on my assignment, and 83% on my exam! I am happy. I have decided where I want to work when I am done. At the Hamlets. I don't know if i wrote that before. But they have a brain injury ward for young adults, and they are desperately looking for care aides! But right now we are studying all about nutrition...and I have to create a recipe for a diabetic, and have all the ingredients from the Canada food guide, and I have no idea how to do it. I am also doing one on a pureed diet too...So if anyone can give me any tips on how to do that it would be great!!

Travis has the weekend off, and we have nothing to do!! It's going to be a sunny weekend too, so maybe we will take off for the day or something. Today is 20 degrees out!! It's so nice

Ashley and Mercede are coming to visit in 21 more days!! Yay I can't wait to see my baby girl!!!!!

Life isnt long enough to take for granted:(

2008-04-27T19:30:00.000-07:00

It's been a sad last couple days. Jody Mckimmon passed away Friday in a car crash, she was 17 years old. Way to young to go. My best friends Grandpa is really sick with a major blood infection due to a massive heart attack. There are all these innocent people out there, who do not deserve this, and their families do not deserve it. My heart goes out to the families struggling with the losses of their loved ones. Here I am sitting here, knowing these people didn't mean for this to happen. Who knows, at this moment my mom and Ross are probably taking a hit of coke or injecting heroin. who knows what they are doing, I know it's mean to say, but thats how i truly feel. There two people right there, throwing their lives away, not giving a shit about anything else, as one innocent young girl lost her life, and one is struggling for his life. I just don't get it. To the families keep strong, it will get better!

I want to thank Travis' parents for being so great to me, I really do appreciate it

hmm

2008-04-26T17:57:00.000-07:00

Nothing to exciting happening here the last week, I'm in school full time, Travis is working full time. We have been boring and busy! The weather has been nice this weekend, today is warm, but really windy. I went to the library to do some homework. We are getting into the harder stuff, and it's getting to be a lot of work. But If I keep up with the homework, and studying I will be ok! I can't wait to start working! There is a place here on the west side called the Hamlets. It is a seniors home, but it also has a brain injury ward also. I am going to see if i can do my practicum there, and hopefully get on full time when I am done. I just noticed here today that there is another center being built close to where we live now, so I know for a fact that there will be no shortage of jobs! Anyways back to the books for now, got another exam on Thursday!

I just want to say my thoughts are with the Mckimmon family right now, their youngest daughter, sister was killed in a bad car accident in Deroche yesterday, R.I.P Jody! She was a 17 yr old girl, just about to graduate:( My thoughts are with you!

Scared...Mad

2008-04-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

I called my mom last night...she was totally out of it. Rambling, giggling, didnt know what she was talking about. Just sounded really bouncy and out of it. Then she started complaining about mouth sores or Ulcers...I think she is doing drugs. But I dont know. If anyone know what mouth sores are caused from? First thing I thought was DRUGS! Where did my parents go?? They raised us great and everything. But now we are older they don't give a shit. My dad decided to take off on his family and never talk to them again, and my mom decided to turn to drugs. Great parents I have! So please comment and give me some solutions or answers PLEASE!!! Thanks for everyone who has been here for me over these years. They have not been easy at all!

I dont think it's spring yet!

2008-04-20T17:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was crazy. Snow...In April?? I don't get it. We went to Costco and went shopping, I told Travis It felt we were going Christmas shopping! Cause it was soo cold and windy and snowing like crazy! Today is a bit warmer, but nothing close to last weekend! 25 degrees! Big difference!! It's retarded! Anyways We are busy around the house today, I am making dinner and doing homework, Travis is cleaning and stuff.

School is going great. We have our first exam tomorrow! UGH I guess I'm as ready as I will ever be. I bought my first pair scrubs yesterday! Their purple! I put them on and got so excited! Maybe I will wear them tomorrow to give me good luck!! haha I need it! Anyways gotta get going, dinner is almost ready! Talk to you all later!

20 Years ago I think!

2008-04-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

My cousin Liz sent me some pictures on facebook! I love them, take a look!!
I was between 2 and 4 yrs old!

is spring here?

2008-04-12T18:25:00.000-07:00

Well I think Spring is here! Today feels like summer. Just watching the weather network, and it's 22!! YAY finally. I went shopping today, bought a skort and two tank tops! It will be nice. I am just going to clean my house today, and study a bit. I was outside all day! So NICE! Tonight we are going to Karaoke, I haven't heard Trav sing in a couple weeks! About Travis...He is looking to go to school now, when I am done! He wants to be a computer technition. I can't wait. Then we can have our careers, pay off the car, buy a house...Get married?? HAHA thinking a head of myself now! Anyways hope everyone is enjoying the nice weather!

School! And my support Team!

2008-04-09T21:17:00.000-07:00

Well school has started! We are going on day 4 now! It's going great. I have to quit work though, I can't do both, work and school and study and homework! Just not going to happen! Something is really bugging me right now. I was told I will not have much support from Travis' family, and that they were holding me back. Well right now, they are my biggest support team. I dont want to start anything, but I am frustrated right now. Travis is a big inspiration in my life, and so are his family. I got a card from his mom, just to say congratulations. Something so simple made me get tears in my eyes! My mom hasn't even said congratulations, or OH I'm so happy for you...And she probably never will. I told her about the things I had to do about getting ready, she said it was all bullshit! But I just want to say thanks to everyone, and this blog isn't meant to offend anyone, or cause anything!

Survey

2008-04-06T21:04:00.000-07:00

I've been tagged by Jas

1. If your doctor told you today that you were pregnant, what would you say? Now??

2. When was the last time you flew in a plane? Never been on a plane:(

3. What did the last text message you sent say? No...by Trina

4. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex? Eyes, compatibility

5. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future? Start going to the gym regularly

6. Shoe size? 09

7. Been to Mexico? Not yet

8. When is the last time you had a massage? can't remember

9. What was the last TV show you watched? Extreme Makeover Home edition

10. What are your plans for the weekend? Work Saturday, Homework Sunday probably

11. If your significant other asked you to marry them today what would you say? In a heart beat!

12. What is in the back seat of your car right now? I'm not sure, Travis has the car

13. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? waking up

14. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be? MAtthew McConaughey

15. Have you ever been to a strip club? yep!

16. What is the best ice cream flavor? Chocolate!

17. What is the last sporting event you watched? Hockey last night

18. Ever go camping? not in a long time

19. Last phone call? Solicitor...Someone trying to get us to sell Mona Vie

20. Are you allergic to anything? I don't think so...being alone?

21. What is one thing you have learned about life recently? be patient

22. What do you do at work? Take phone calls for 8 hrs!

23. What is your mom’s name? Sandra

24. Ever cried for no reason? yep

25. Can you do the Crank Dat dance? No……

26. What is your favorite color to wear? Brown

27. What is the longest plane ride you have ever been on? Never been on a plane

28. What is the longest road trip you have ever taken? California

29. What are your turn-offs? negativity ;)

30. What was your last alcoholic beverage? Ceaser

31. What are you craving right now? Snuggling with Travis...and his smell

I'm going to tag Jennifer