the gym

Well I finally started going to the gym. Tomorrow will be day 3. We havent been to much yet, just Aqua Fit! But its great, and a great work out. My goal is to lose as much weight as I can in 2 months! Because we are going to Nickelback in June. I want to wear my nice dress and actually look good in it! I have a pair of Capri's that I havent been able to wear since I moved to Kamloops. I can almost fit them, but not yet. They are a size 16. Then hopefully by the end of summer i can wear my sun dress, that is a size 13!! I bought it when I lived in Airdrie! So that proves how much weight I have gained in 3 years. I will keep updating...My starting weight is 210 lbs! I am recording this for myself...not for people to judge me. I will post it once a week...:)

Oh how i miss you

Meesh!!

A year ago today...well I guess yesterday now I met Heather at work! Who knew how close we would be! She is such an amazing friend. We had a great day, with some fun pictures!! love ya Hezzy!!

The Little Things!

Some things that get me through the day. Even though they are little things!

1. Waking up to my kitties!

2. Charlie always wanting to sit and cuddle with me, and only me! He's my little kitty

3. Hearing my hunny's voice every day on the phone!

4. Ice Tea Lemonaide from Starbucks!!

5. Talking to my buddy Heather every day. She always calls to see how my day is going!

6. Blogging, and reading other blogs!!

7. Being confident inm yself, and not letting my depression get the worst of me!

8. Chatting on MSN

9. Facebook!! Soo addicted!!

10. Talking to my mom everyday!! Havent seen her since July. I miss her tons:(

I know they are little things, but they are my little things in my every day life. My kitties are the best, and they love me so much! Buddy is my 15 lbs grey tabby! And Charlie is my little tabby! He has been a great little guy. They have definitly helped me get through every day.

My hunny makes so many things better. Just hearing his voice, makes me know things will be ok. I can't wait to actually be with him forever. He lives in Campbell River, so I don't get to see him. But I talk to him every day!

People know me at starbucks! Im sure they know what I order too. Depending on the day, I get a Vanilla Latte or a White Chocolate Mocha...Or a Venti Ice Tea Black Lemonaide! mmm soo good!!

I have known Heather almost a year now. We met at work, and have been friends ever since! She has been there for me this whole time after losing my job and everything! She is a great friend! Meesh!!!

I am addicted to reading blogs! As most of you. Kelly's Korner is one of my faves!! She is awesome and so inspiring!

Anyways Just thought I would do a quick post! Hope everyone is well:) Leave some comments if you read my blog!! Be nice to see who is reading, and see where you are all from:)

interviews

I am on the verge of getting kicked out of my house! My roomate is an asshole and hasnt paid me rent in almost 2 months! I am going to have to kick him out if he doesnt pay! It would be so nice to have my house back!! Well I got 2 phone calls today for interviews! One is for home support! I would love to do that. But do I tel them what happened? Or just leave it all out? I also have an interview at subway. I could work at subway in the morning, and Home Support in the evening! Things are starting to look up! YAY me

still hanging in there..

Well I am still here, almost running out of patients. People who know me, know I have a lot of patients. Everything was working so well for me. I had my career, my friends, my apartment. I had everything going for me, and all because of a couple people, that had nothing better to do, other then try and get someone fired, ruined it for me. I hope they are happy that they got their way. Hope their happy that they got me fired, and ruined everything for me. But you know what...Life goes on. One day I will be ok, happy. And I hope I will have someone to come home to every night. Right now I feel so lost and depressed. All I can ask for are good friends to be here for me! I believe everything happens for a reason, maybe it will all come together. I hope so anyways.

a sign everything's going to be OK!!

Well I have been through a lot this past month. The other day I lost it...I wanted to give up, and walk away from everything. I have been screwed over by work, I didn't get EI, because of work. I just wanted to quit. So I sat down one day, and asked for a sign that everything will be ok. The next day...I met him! We are perfect for each other, he is something I have been waiting for all my life. We want the same things in life, same morals, everything. Since meeting him...I have had a huge boost, and motivated to move on. His encoureging words make me get through my day! I can't wait to see what the future holds! I truely do believe tho that he was a sign, and couldn't have come in a better time!! He's perfect for me. I now know...everything will be OK!!!