change in Life :(

Well im sure most of you have heard. Jeremy and I broke up. I am still in shock, and miss him so much. But im guessing it was for the better. He was and still is everything to me. I love him with all my heart, no matter what happens he will always be my dear friend. Its amazing how much you miss something, or someone after you dont have them any more. I still see my future with him. Having an amazing wedding, beautiful children. Just not any time soon. We both need to change things I know. I understand we are still both very young, and have our whole lives ahead of us. I just hope i can spend my life with him. And his amazing family. They are amazing people. I dont want to lose the connection I have with them. They will always be my family no matter what happens. I love you guys so much, thanks for everything. This is one of the hardest things I have been through, but in the end everything will be ok. I am living with a roomate right now. She is really cool. I got a phone call today from a friend of my moms, he wants me to go and live at his house to watch his son, Free rent, and everything, and its closer to work. he said he will buy the groceries and everything. I am going to talk to him after work tonight and work things out. I would really like to do it, I will gain more independance, and save money to go to school. Well thats enough for now. Hope everyone is well!!