I hate this date with a passion, October 19

It's been 2 yrs and I still hate this date, I hate hearing it. To this day it still gives me chills and tears to my eyes. On this day 2 years ago, I have never felt to hurt and alone. Someone riped my heart out and stomped on it a million times, left me in the middle of no where. With no one else around. I felt like dying. It was by far the worst day of my life. I don't miss the fact that we broke up, it's not about that. It's about how I felt, how alone and scared I was. I want to make this a good day. Even though it was such a horrible week after the 19th, and I thought my life was over. It was just beginning. And I couldn't have asked for anything better. I have grown in so many ways in 2 yrs. I'm not that stupid girl that was to dependent on others. I am going to make this day a good day. Dinner with the grandparents (Travis') and then the Wilkinson's concert! WOOO HOOO. Travis I love you more then anything!