I cant live not knowing where he is. So it is me again who must contact him!

Well I am at it again. I am finding my dad. I am not sure what everyone will think or anything. He is my father, I cant live without knowing where he is. He is my guardian angel, my hero, I look up to him. Even at times like this. I have started something. I wont say much here. If u want to know, you can call me, or msg me. All I need is support. I dont want to hear that he doesnt care about me. Because I know he always will. Anyways wish me luck!

Baby and other things!

Yay I am soo excited! I am going to be an aunty again really soon! Can't say the date, but sometime within the next couple weeks...I am so happy for my brother and Ashley! They are awesome parents. Mercede is lucky to have them. So to my Brother, sister-in-law, and Niece CONGRATULATIONS!! Not only are they having another baby, they just bought their first house! I called him yesterday and they were just setting up, and Mercede was trying to help! She is such a doll!! I am going to go visit them in August!! Long 30 hr bus ride, but well worth it!

School is exhausting right now, I don't know why, all I want to do is sleep. Not feeling good, no energy, no appetite, Just want to sleep! Hopefully it will go away soon, I think it's from the pain I am in right now, with my tendinitis, my ankle was very swollen yesterday, and I can barely walk on it. Stupid dr's here are well...stupid. He told me there was nothing for it, so i told my instructor at school and she said there is lots, if I don't do anything now i will need surgery. And also my tooth is infected again, so I have to go to the dentist next week. Maybe once my foot and mouth heal I will be better! I hope so!!

Tomorrow we are going to go to Barrier for karaoke! There are like 10 of us regulars going. It's going to be fun! Then saturday and sunday we will clean and do laundry and pack, cause we have to move at the end of the month! We dont really want to move now, cause we made this our home, but I am sure we can make our new place a home too!
Anyways Gotta go, gonna clean up and go to bed!

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I miss you dad

I really don't like these days:( The days when I cant get him off my mind, wondering if he's OK. I went to school today, and we talked about mental health problems, and things that lead to it. I shared my story about him, and it was very emotional. I wonder if he knows I am always thinking about him, or if he knows I have days where I cant function without knowing where he is. I had to leave school early today, I was having such a hard time. It didn't help I had a dream about him last night. I found him, and he came to live with us!! Next weekend is fathers day. I will buy him a little gift and a card, just so he knows I am thinking about him. I wish he realized how much he means to me and how much I miss him and love him! I am hoping tomorrow will be a better day. I just feel like hiding till I feel better again! Thanks for listening, who ever is reading this, and dad I miss you and love you soo much.

ooooh great

So when I got to see Ashley and Mercede 2 weeks ago my foot started swelling and it was sort of painful, I didnt think anything of it, just thought it was bad support in my shoes. But in the last week it has gotten really painful and the pain went into my heal and the other side of my foot. Feels like the bone is bruised. So I went to the doctor the other day, turns out I have really bad tendinitis in my ankle and heal! GREAT. I am wanting to go to the gym so bad, but I cant because I have to stay off it as much as I can, I got an ankle brace for support, but it still hurts like crazy. I am hoping it will get better within the next month, because I start my practicum next month. And I will be on my feet all day! ugh it's painful. Anyways Better go clean my house!! Have a gooder!!

Weight loss and stuff!

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Well I started my diet today. It has been going good. Craving carbs though, I want a piece of bread or pasta!! LOL cant have it though, it's alright, i will survive and it will be worth it in the end. Here is a list of what I ate today!

Breakfast: 1 egg scrambled
Snack: No fat plain yogurt, and 3 onion rings!:O
Lunch: Chicken salad, with hard boiled egg and fat free dressing
Dinner: Salad with mushrooms and egg, and 2 small pieces of roast beef, and lots of water.

So right now I am 224 lbs...so my scale says. My goal weight for right now is 175 lbs, It's horrible but I will do it!!

missing Dad and Jay!

Today has been a hard day. I am missing my family. I miss my dad, and Jason. I never get to talk to them, I don't even know where Dad is. Mercede and Ashley are so lucky to have Jay! He is a great guy. I got to talk to him tonight! Not for long but I did, I told him i missed him, and that I loved him! Wish I could do that with my dad! Here are some old pics of them! Brings back memories

Mercede Lynn

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12 more hours

It's finally almost Saturday! LOL only if my niece knew how much Aunty misses her! I really can't wait any more! To everyone I wont be able to see this weekend, I am very sorry, I am going to be in Deroche, if anyone really wants to see me! I wont be there to long. But long enough to spend time with my niece! I cant wait. Miss you lots baby girl!

I have been updating my blog a lot. But haven't gotten any comments. So leave a comment who ever reads this, even if I don't know who you are! Thanks, I will post pics when i get back of my beautiful girl! CANT WAIT!

Can you blame me for being frustrated?

I am so frustrated right now. I just found out Ashley has been in Kamloops since the 17th, and does not have time to come see me. So she is down for a whole month, and I get to see her one day! I don't get it. I even asked her if she wanted to go for coffee or something when i get off school...she said no, im to busy, thats when my family gets home!! Great sister in law I have! I really want to see my niece. But she doesn't give 2 shits what I want. Anyways enough about that, at least I get to see them for ONE whol day! UGH Anyways gotta go have a shower and get ready for school!! Have a good day everyone!

awesome weekend! Great weather and pics!!

This weekend was great, we went to Wells Grey Park on Saturday! We got to see Helmken falls, which is 3 times taller then Niagara Falls! It was breath taking. Then we got to see Baily's Chute. It was a little hike to get there, but it was fun. Travis had a beautiful butterfly land on his finger...I think that means good luck right?? We seen about 5 deer on the side of the road. And a black bear! It was so neat. He was so close. I am going to add some pictures of the beautiful waterfalls!!

Weekend!! and Hotness

I am excited. Travis has the weekend off, and its HOT. So we were gonna be busy today, u know, house hunting, grocery shopping, wash the car, blah blah blah. Totally was not looking forward to it. So we changed our minds and are going out to Wells Grey Park for the day, for a picnic, and to take pics! I am excited. It is going to be 32 degrees today! But it looks cloudy and Windy, so it will be nice. Travis and I both fell asleep on the couches last night though, I didnt have a very good sleep. But oh well I will be ok.

Yesterday we had like 3 hrs for school. We got our 6 week evaluation yesterday, mine was good, I currently got 92% in all 6 modules so far, so I am doing good. We are going to be going into our 7th week. Yesterday after school, a bunch of girls and I went out to the old Tranquille farm, which is an old mental institution, kind of like esendale if anyone knows about that one. We walked around and looked at all the old building, it was kind of creepy because it said no trespassing all over, but we went anyways, we are going to find the owner, and see if we can go for a tour with all of our class.

Anyways gotta go get ready, gonna head out soon. I am bringing the camera so I will post some pics when I have the time. Have a great long weekend everyone!!

UGH, Summer has arrived!!

Well I think summer arrived early this year...Back to the Kamloops dry heat! It is may 15th, and it is supposed to get up to 30 degrees, and tomorrow is gonna be 32!!! I guess I have to get used to it. 32 was nothing compared to last year. Try 10 degrees hotter. I KNOW!! 42 degrees!! AHHH to hot for me. And we have labs all day at work, so I cant even wear summer clothes! Gotta wear scrubs!! Not looking forward to it. Anyways I better go, gotta get ready and go to school!

Interesting, boring and excitement

Well it's been a boring couple weeks at school, we are into the dry stuff, like measurement, blood pressure all that kind of doctor stuff. We got to go up to Kamloops Seniors Village today. It was fun, we got to play with the lifts. There has been some problems going on at school with a girl I am sitting with and I, she is a prissy girl who makes me look 10 inches tall, she treats me like a 4 yr old, and talks over me. So the instructor has been noticing it. She took me out today and talked to me about it, so hopefully tomorrow i will be ok! God people, this isnt high school again, i didn't pay 6000.00 to get treated like that. Oh well I am a big girl, and not worried about it. But who cares. Anyways we all went out for lunch today while we were up there, and someone decided to drink. BEER!! So as soon as she got back she was kicked out. We'll see if she comes back, How stupid and careless can you be?? YOUR AT SCHOOL!!!

Enough about school, my weekend was pretty boring, all i did was homework. It's the long weekend next weekend and it's supposed to be HOT!! Up to 30! And Travis doesn't have to work, so I am not sure what we are doing, I cant wait though, I like it when he doesn't work. I just realized we have lived together for a year now!! And It has also been a year since we moved from Quesnel!!

Im not sure what this world is coming too, global warming is horrible. I say that because I am watching the news, and they just showed the huge earthquake in China, and the the cyclone? Thats so sad:(

Anyways I better go, I have homework to do. WOOHOO!

Survey

Your ex is driving next to you, what do you do? Wave at him, havnt heard from him in almost a year



Where is your significant other at the moment? He's at work, will be home soon!!


When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Today!!!


What is the last thing you spent money on? Food, DQ yesterday for lunch, sucks having it next door to school


Who is the most attractive male on your facebook friends list? Travis of course!

If you had to sleep with one of your teachers who would it be? Umm ewww


Congratulations! You just had a daughter!! What's her name? Kaydence Danielle!!

What are you craving right now?
more sleep

What was the last thing you cried about?
my momma

When you buy something and your change is 2 cents do you keep it or tell them to keep it? probably keep it, cause they just hand it to you, but i never use cash

Have you ever blocked someone on facebook before? I dont think so


Do you think you're a hoe? Not at all. I have one and only one partner!

Are you happy? Never been so happy. Good career, good place, awesome man!! Everything I could want

Who came over last night? no one came over

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? My stupid cousin always did


What was the last movie you watched at home? hmmm I can't remember, SWATT i think


Where do you hurt? My head

What's something fun you did today? Went to Dairy Queen for ice cream with Katina


When is your birthday? July 2nd


Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? I can't remember

What kind of milk do you drink? 1% sometimes 2%


What are you going to do after this? Sleep, got a headache

Do you like pickles? Yeah

Favorite pop tart flavor?
chocolate or smore !

What are your plans for the weekend? Relax and homework, gym

Do you like the color green? Not really


Who was the last person to send you a text message and what was it? Travis, said HI


Last restaurant you went to? DQ


How many hours did you sleep last night? 6?? I have no idea


Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle? Tried to


Do you like your name? Yeah I do, my first name is nice and old fashion, and I like the spelling of my middle name. Rebeckah


What do you do when you are bored? Sleep, eat...NOT GOOD

Do you have a job? no, I am going to school full time


What is your current mood? Bitchy achy, thirsty

What made you laugh last? Travis when he called. He's just so cute


What are you doing now? this survey, and watching something on the food network


What is your favorite song? Can't hide Beautiful...and some others

Who is your best friend? Travis, Danielle


Most visited website? Facebook and Craigslist right now(looking for a place to rent)


Do you have a car? No, but when i start work in September, I will get my license and buy a car

How tall are you? 5'5

Did your last kiss mean anything? It always does. I kissed Travis goodbye this morning...he was still sleeping

just a boring update! Need some help!

Well School is going great, I got 93% on my assignment, and 83% on my exam! I am happy. I have decided where I want to work when I am done. At the Hamlets. I don't know if i wrote that before. But they have a brain injury ward for young adults, and they are desperately looking for care aides! But right now we are studying all about nutrition...and I have to create a recipe for a diabetic, and have all the ingredients from the Canada food guide, and I have no idea how to do it. I am also doing one on a pureed diet too...So if anyone can give me any tips on how to do that it would be great!!

Travis has the weekend off, and we have nothing to do!! It's going to be a sunny weekend too, so maybe we will take off for the day or something. Today is 20 degrees out!! It's so nice

Ashley and Mercede are coming to visit in 21 more days!! Yay I can't wait to see my baby girl!!!!!

Life isnt long enough to take for granted:(

It's been a sad last couple days. Jody Mckimmon passed away Friday in a car crash, she was 17 years old. Way to young to go. My best friends Grandpa is really sick with a major blood infection due to a massive heart attack. There are all these innocent people out there, who do not deserve this, and their families do not deserve it. My heart goes out to the families struggling with the losses of their loved ones. Here I am sitting here, knowing these people didn't mean for this to happen. Who knows, at this moment my mom and Ross are probably taking a hit of coke or injecting heroin. who knows what they are doing, I know it's mean to say, but thats how i truly feel. There two people right there, throwing their lives away, not giving a shit about anything else, as one innocent young girl lost her life, and one is struggling for his life. I just don't get it. To the families keep strong, it will get better!

I want to thank Travis' parents for being so great to me, I really do appreciate it

hmm

Nothing to exciting happening here the last week, I'm in school full time, Travis is working full time. We have been boring and busy! The weather has been nice this weekend, today is warm, but really windy. I went to the library to do some homework. We are getting into the harder stuff, and it's getting to be a lot of work. But If I keep up with the homework, and studying I will be ok! I can't wait to start working! There is a place here on the west side called the Hamlets. It is a seniors home, but it also has a brain injury ward also. I am going to see if i can do my practicum there, and hopefully get on full time when I am done. I just noticed here today that there is another center being built close to where we live now, so I know for a fact that there will be no shortage of jobs! Anyways back to the books for now, got another exam on Thursday!

I just want to say my thoughts are with the Mckimmon family right now, their youngest daughter, sister was killed in a bad car accident in Deroche yesterday, R.I.P Jody! She was a 17 yr old girl, just about to graduate:( My thoughts are with you!

Scared...Mad

I called my mom last night...she was totally out of it. Rambling, giggling, didnt know what she was talking about. Just sounded really bouncy and out of it. Then she started complaining about mouth sores or Ulcers...I think she is doing drugs. But I dont know. If anyone know what mouth sores are caused from? First thing I thought was DRUGS! Where did my parents go?? They raised us great and everything. But now we are older they don't give a shit. My dad decided to take off on his family and never talk to them again, and my mom decided to turn to drugs. Great parents I have! So please comment and give me some solutions or answers PLEASE!!! Thanks for everyone who has been here for me over these years. They have not been easy at all!

I dont think it's spring yet!

Yesterday was crazy. Snow...In April?? I don't get it. We went to Costco and went shopping, I told Travis It felt we were going Christmas shopping! Cause it was soo cold and windy and snowing like crazy! Today is a bit warmer, but nothing close to last weekend! 25 degrees! Big difference!! It's retarded! Anyways We are busy around the house today, I am making dinner and doing homework, Travis is cleaning and stuff.

School is going great. We have our first exam tomorrow! UGH I guess I'm as ready as I will ever be. I bought my first pair scrubs yesterday! Their purple! I put them on and got so excited! Maybe I will wear them tomorrow to give me good luck!! haha I need it! Anyways gotta get going, dinner is almost ready! Talk to you all later!

20 Years ago I think!

My cousin Liz sent me some pictures on facebook! I love them, take a look!!
I was between 2 and 4 yrs old!