Sad today

Today is my dad's birthday. It makes me sad he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore. I dont know where he is, or what he's doing. I can't even call him to wish him a happy birthday. Hopefully one day he will realize im not mad for the things he has done in the past. And we can build our relationship back. Right now i dont even know if he knows Jason is going to be a daddy, and He's going to be a grandpa. I really hope everyone else can forgive him for what he has done in the past too. I'm sure they can. But i dont know if he know's that. My dad was and still is great. He was always there for me when I needed him, and he never gave up, and was always positive at everything I did. I hope Jeremy and Ashley can get to know him better in the future. I think of Jeremy's dad as my dad. Sometimes I call him Dad. Then there is Ross, who I thnk expects me to think of him as my dad, or step dad. I would never think of him as either. Well enough of talking about dad's. Hope everyone is doing well. I will post more soon